Oceans and Engines

Saturday sunset we’re lying on my bed with five hours to go

Fingers entwined and so were our minds, crying ‘I don’t want you to go’

You wiped away tears but not fears under the still and clear indigo

You said ‘Baby, don’t cry. We’ll be fine you’re the one thing I swear I can’t outgrow’.

My mother said the younger me was a ‘pretending’ prodigy-well, nothing, then, much has changed

‘Cause while you’re wolfing down liquor, my soul-it gets sicker

But I’m sticking to the screen play, gotta say I’m okay, but answer this babe

How is it not that somehow you’re a stranger?

You were mine just yesterday

I prayed the block in my airway dissipates and instead deters your airplane’s way

But heaven denied

Destiny decried

Something beautiful die too soon

But I’m letting go

I’m giving up the ghost

But don’t get me wrong, I’ll always love you that’s why I wrote you this very last song

I guess this is where we say goodbye

I know I’ll be alright

Someday I’ll be fine but just not tonight

Plunging into all kinds of diversions like blush wine and sonorous soirées

But even with gin and surgin’ adrenaline

I see you’re all that can intoxicate

Oceans and engines

You’re skilled at infringin’ on great love affairs

Because now my heart’s home-all I’ve known is long gone and ten thousand miles away

And I’m not okay

But I’m letting go

I’m giving up the ghost

But don’t get me wrong, I’ll always love you that’s why I wrote you this very last song

I guess this is where we say goodbye

I know I’ll be alright

Someday I’ll be fine but just not tonight- was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia two years ago

And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones

Now what do you do when pillar crumbled down you’ve lost all solid ground

But dreams and demons drowned

This void’s all you’ve found and doubts light it aglow

I have so many questions

But I’m pouring them into the ocean and I’m starting up my engine

And I’m letting go

I’m giving your ghost

It’s come to a close

I marked the end with this last song I wrote

I’m letting go

This is the last falsetto

I’ll ever sing to you, my great lost live